In my Heart, In my Arms

Eight years ago I gave birth to a precious little son

and we named him Parker William Ankerich.

He was 22 weeks~ too little and too sick for this world

but not for Jesus.

He had his birthday and Jesus day all together. :)

I have always been very sad on this day

but this year seems to be a little different.

I had a great peace today...

Maybe having Will on the way allows

my heart to begin dreaming of a son again~

love in my heart (Parker) and love in my arms (Will).

So we remember Parker with a beautiful tree

we planted at our old house 8 years ago,

flowers placed in our church last week,

and pinwheels we placed on his grave today.

I received these sweet words from a friend

who lost her son just like me...

"Just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you and your precious family today. Like you, I don’t even pretend to understand God’s ways or His thoughts, but we both know that His way is perfect and that He accomplishes His purposes even in the midst of our pain and our questions. I’m so thankful for the brief, precious life of your beloved Parker; I know you miss him so much and that you often wonder what he would be like today if he were with us. I trust that his life had a special purpose, just as our precious Chandler’s did, and that he is perfect and complete with Jesus now."

I LOVE the part of him being perfect and complete with Jesus now...

and forever!!!

I LOVE that God gave him to me for 22 weeks to know, and love, and feel

and give to heaven in a blink of an eye... no sickness or pain.

I don't know why we had to loose two babies

but I do know I have MUCH

(an amazing husband and 5 beautiful daughters!)

to be thankful for

and in that thankfulness,

I have joy and peace.

I am thankful God has allowed us to love yet another little soul~

one waiting far away in China for HIS forever family.

Parker will always be in my heart

and I look SO forward to the day Will will be in my arms!!!

Both boys named after their daddy~

Parker William and William Scott Minzhong. )

Ephesians 3:20-21

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us,

to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations,

for ever and ever! Amen.

Today I woke up sad... Parker William Ankerich was born March 13, 2003 @ 21 weeks. Still after 6 years, I miss him desperately... but the Lord gave me a sweet Word this morning in a song I remembered singing at our old church, First Baptist Duluth...

Blessed be the Name of the Lord,
Blessed be the Name,
Blessed be the Name of the Lord,
Blessed be His Glorious Name,
You give and take away,
You give and take away,
My heart will choose to say,
Blessed be the Name!!!

How can I be sad today when I have so much to be thankful for...
I am not alone today- Scott is working from home, the girls are home on holiday from school, Savannah is surrounded by Josh's sweet family on her way to Florida for spring break, and this precious little gift from the Lord is holding onto me as tight as her little arms can squeeze!!!



Oh thank you Jesus for holding my two babies in heaven and holding us together as a family as we wait to see them once again! I also pray today for our precious ShayleeJoy who will come to us when God chooses the day... OH I have SO much to be thankful for!!!

James 1:17

Update: This was sent to me by a precious friend who has been through the valley too. Thanks Kim for this sweet word-

Find comfort in the sovereignty of God...
There is no lost potential, no purpose unaccomplished-
there is only the glorious plan of God
perfectly fulfilled in a precious little life.



Blessings,