Thursday, September 10, 2009

Finding my Way: Letting EK fly...

I begin this post writing with very raw emotions so bear with me. I posted on FB last Wed:
Life went in a completely different direction today... I actually took EK to 'visit' preschool for many reasons. I would appreciate any prayers lifted for us as we ALL make adjustments to what we THOUGHT our life looked like. God is SO amazing and does amazing things in my life everyday. I am so blessed and want to make my life a living sacrifice for Him!

Scott and I pray daily about the direction of our family and for some time, I have prayed where God was leading me... All along, I have been adamant about home schooling EK and God has shown me, she can have both worlds right now. I was feeling a need to help our family financially in some way and have an opportunity to teach very part time in the mornings @ a local elem. school. So EK and I visited preschool together again yesterday and she loved it. She knew over half her class and her day flowed very similar to a day I might have had in K: welcome, calendar, dancing and movement (twice), sheet work, storytime (twice), snack, art and painting, free center play. She also went to chapel and out for playtime on playground. She had a ball and definitely loved it. We enjoyed Happy Meals as a special treat together and returned home to hear her say, "Can we do REAL school now?"- that was music to my ears... God saying- "I'm not replacing what you were doing here at home, just adding to it"... so WHY? you may be asking... did you need to put her in preschool?

As I said, I have been given an opportunity to teach very part time at a local elementary school starting sometime in October and I would be able to that in the mornings plus I am hoping to sub at preschool too. It won't be a huge salary but it will be helping our family in a small way while giving EK the experience of being with sweet friends and learning too.

So I entitled this post- Finding my Way. Today was an extremely tough day for me. It is the very FIRST time I had driven away leaving EK at a building for an extended period of time. I walked her in, stood at the door while she unpacked, and then backed away to see her sitting on the carpet with big eyes looking at me (no tears) :). I sat out in the waiting area for a long time and God gave me the courage to stand up and leave her for a short while. I could not wait to pick her up and see what she had to say... Her teacher said she had a GREAT day and she said she wanted to go back tomorrow!

Why am I Finding my Way? Because for 3 wonderful years, EK has been with me and SHE was what I did with my time and I LOVED IT!!! This morning I was LOST without her. It was nauseating to leave her but God reminded me:

“You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while, ‘He who is coming will come and will not delay’” (Hebrews 10:36–37 NIV)

So here's a trustworthy equation: Little Faith + Big God = Huge Results! - You take your little faith; "Lord, I believe! Help me with my unbelief!" - And you place your faith in our big God. And then he'll show you how he works out huge results.

All that to say... I believe God lead me to this place in my life and He is blessing our family. I hope all my home school friends understand where I am coming from and know I am still doing it with you just in a different way. We shall see where God leads us next year but for now we are all just fine and know that He already knows and will lead the way. I guess I've Found my Way after all- JUST FOLLOW!!! Whew!

Here are a few pics of EK yesterday at preschool...EK @ school




  1. Oh my goodness! I forgot you were doing that this morning - sorry I didn't check in on you! I am so glad to hear it went well and she had a great time. I knew that she would! She's going to love it. Glad you made it today too! Proud of you!

  2. It looks like she had a great time. I am sure that it has been your constant companionship and nurturing over the past three years that gave her the confidence to allow herself to have fun and not be afraid. It's hard watching them grow up, but you obviously did the right thing with EK.

  3. Glad to see you both did well! Thinking of you!

  4. What a special post. I will have that feeling next year when Maggie goes to preschool. You should actually be happy that she was fine with going, Maggie is still bucking me anytime I try to leave her and it is so hard to know when to do it too she fearful that I won't return?

    Adorable pics!!

  5. very Sweet..I am glad that EK had a GREAT time and that she called YOUR school REAL school ;) Be.Still.My.Heart!!!! You will get nothing BUT support & love from me!! I know all too well the journey changes, at the drop of a hat!

    In other news, LOVE Ek's sassy dress! She always looks adorable!

    I can't wait to hear more about the journal. I am ordering the How To draw books this week - I think all the kids will love them! AND I bought the supplies for our story line :) It is just not UP yet!

  6. Sounds like it could not have gone any better. Good luck with your new position. That school is certainly blessed to have you join their staff.

  7. I could feel your emotions as if they were my own. I so understand how you are feeling! Looks and sounds like EK just loves it though. I know that has to ease your heart a bit.


  8. it sounds like a wonderful plan. Many blessings as you find your way...

  9. As always He works everything out in His perfect way, we just have to be willing to follow.

    Hugs and Blessings,

  10. I completely understand how you were feeling. Three weeks ago I dropped Briana off at school for the first time and I was a nervous wreck. Bri had a few issues the first day and that made me second guess my choice to put her in preschool. But the second day and every day after that has been wonderful. Bri loves school! I know EK will love it too! Good luck with your new position!