Sunday, March 13, 2011

In my Heart, In my Arms

Eight years ago I gave birth to a precious little son
and we named him Parker William Ankerich.
He was 22 weeks~ too little and too sick for this world
but not for Jesus.
He had his birthday and Jesus day all together. :)
I have always been very sad on this day
but this year seems to be a little different.

I had a great peace today...
Maybe having Will on the way allows
my heart to begin dreaming of a son again~
love in my heart (Parker) and love in my arms (Will).

So we remember Parker with a beautiful tree
we planted at our old house 8 years ago,

flowers placed in our church last week,

and pinwheels we placed on his grave today.

I received these sweet words from a friend
who lost her son just like me...
"Just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you and your precious family today. Like you, I don’t even pretend to understand God’s ways or His thoughts, but we both know that His way is perfect and that He accomplishes His purposes even in the midst of our pain and our questions. I’m so thankful for the brief, precious life of your beloved Parker; I know you miss him so much and that you often wonder what he would be like today if he were with us. I trust that his life had a special purpose, just as our precious Chandler’s did, and that he is perfect and complete with Jesus now."

I LOVE the part of him being perfect and complete with Jesus now...
and forever!!!

I LOVE that God gave him to me for 22 weeks to know, and love, and feel
and give to heaven in a blink of an eye... no sickness or pain.

I don't know why we had to loose two babies
but I do know I have MUCH
(an amazing husband and 5 beautiful daughters!)
to be thankful for
and in that thankfulness,
I have joy and peace.

I am thankful God has allowed us to love yet another little soul~
one waiting far away in China for HIS forever family.
Parker will always be in my heart
and I look SO forward to the day Will will be in my arms!!!

Both boys named after their daddy~
Parker William and William Scott Minzhong. )

Ephesians 3:20-21
Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us,
to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations,
for ever and ever! Amen.


  1. Hugs.

    Will's cheeks are just too kissable!

  2. Everything that happened led you to this point in your lives, to this place in your faith, and to this readiness in your heart so that Will can enjoy the best that you have to offer as parents. He will be treasured and will be a treasure as well.


  3. Oh my sweet friend. I just found out about Will. I've been so behind on my blogging and catching up on others blogs. I popped over to see how SJ and EK were doing and read all about Will. I am beside myself with joy for you guys. Oh Wow. We will be praying for your family. How amazing that he's from Fujian. God is so good. Congratulations Sharon and Scott. Much love to you guys.

  4. Sharon,
    Much love to you on this day! God is so good and gracious to us all! Looking forward to seeing Will in your arms!
    Love you!

  5. Sharon,
    I pray the Lord will pour out his richest blessings on you and your family. Espically on such a difficult anniversary. Praying for your sweet Will, can't wait to see him in you arms!


  6. Sharon -- I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Parker. I had no idea.

    I know you are so excited to have Will join your family! He will be the perfect addition to your family, and I can't wait to see him in your arms!

    Sending hugs from Nebraska!

  7. Shay,

    So sorry about your precious little Parker . . . I'm so so thankful that he is with Jesus and that you have peace in your hearts.

    Your little Will has such a sweet destiny!

    Sending hugs & prayers.

    xo ellie

  8. Sharon,
    I never knew about your little angel in heaven. Love,Hugs and Kisses your way on this day.

    I love You!!!

  9. On this day... sending you love!! Knowing that God has had YOU all along!! Before! After! And in all the in between! And of course blanketing you and ALL yours in ALL the days to come !!! Thank you for allowing us a "glimpse" into your journey to WILL!! God's Will !!! GLORY !!!

  10. Shay
    Thanks for sharing about your son Parker. So thankful we have a God who is soverign over all and knows better than we could ever imagine. Your faith is so beautiful and William is coming to a beautiful family.

  11. Such a beautiful post. Thinking of you.

  12. I love the sharing of God's perfect & pleasing Will! Sometimes its hard to imagine why things happen in our lives - then , others, God reveals to us in our lifetimes. Pretty sweet.

    Can't wait till Will is in your arms!!

  13. Thank you ALL SO very much! Never know whether to post something so personal or not but it was in my heart so I decided to share. I appreciate your love, support, and prayers! We are doing fine!!!
    Blessings and love!

  14. Oh my friend, I'm so sorry for the loss of your little boy 8 years ago. Such a difficult event to go through but you also know you'll be with him again someday!

    with hugs and love,

  15. I had to hold back tears as I was reading feelings exactly!! Both Parker & Will celebrated their 8th birthday in Heaven this year, and it gives us peace in our hearts knowing how happy they are there with Jesus (and all our loved ones!). I'm beyond happy that you will soon be able to have a son here on earth and he is such a lucky little boy to have a mommy like you! :) Love you!!

  16. Thanks for sharing, thinking of you and sending Hugs too.

  17. That's Sooo Sad but happy at the same time!!

  18. I love how God has given you peace this year. I'm sure it is still extremely hard, but I love how you have found rest in Him.

    My best friend just miscarried her baby last week. She called me from the hospital in deep tears as she told me how they held their precious boy in the palm of their hands. She described his little features and how they have given him the name Zachary Thomas (after her husband, Tom) and we cried together over the pain of his loss, but knowing he is now whole and with Jesus. Even in his short life, he had a 'birthday' and joined Jesus that very day. I appreciated the depth of this post in the midst of processing her loss, too.

    Sending big hugs your way! <><